Friday, February 28, 2014

life is miserable..what can one say about god..he is unfair?,UFOS are for real....the earth is just a tiny dot in the universe.......................

hi its danial tanvir,
here,
i really must say that i am bloody sick of this bloody life.

i miss the heart  of Toronto and the streets of bangkok,the book shops of kathmandu and the beaches of  pattaya which is in thailand.
i am mentally ill,
screw this fucked up obsessive compulsive disorder,
why cant i read christopher hitchens,
i love my father , he listens to me,
please do read my blog and feel free to leave comments.

is god heart less?
to all this people suffering around me.
there are aliens and i want to be abducted by a UFO (unidentified flying objects).

The USA government  is covering up UFO conpiracy theories.
i dont want to live, i want to do i dont know  what.

this illness ,,, this mental illness has fucked up stuff,

my obsessive compuslive disorder has shaked the foundations of my life,
i have to close swithces,taps,window,copboards,etc.
i have an illness and i tajke medicines.
i read "the cathcer in the rye:"by rd sainger and it was horrible,
then i read "nightmaire in bangkok"" which is about a man from hawaii who gets caught smuggling drugs in to bangkok , it is by andy botts,
then i read "mayada:daughter of iraq"by jean sasson.
then i read äll the fished come home to roost" by rachel manja brown.
i just read ïn the city by the sea"by novelist kamila shamsie"

i like her,
there was a literature festival going  on in lahore and there were writers lie vikram seth.
my mother met kamila shamsie and mohommed hanif.
author of   ""ä case of expldoing mangoes".
i talked to kamila shamsie on the phone and my mother got her book ""ä god in every stone"""signed as well as mohommed hanif's ""our lady of allice bhatti"
god is heart less,
i hate god.

i have to give my bloody exams and then might go to the USA via france of bangkok via indian,


life is miserble and the suffering will never end.
screw pakistan where there is no freedom of speech.
screw this boody shit,
i might go to the book shop tomorrow in islamabad,
there is saeed  book bank and there are two book shops opposite to it called the old book shop , it is really nice,
i have to become a writer nad sell 200 million copies , i also like the writer called micheal crichton who passed away in 2008.
i want to get his books , they were for 50 rupees each in the readings book shop in lahore.
i miss the streets of bangkok,
i want to hit the night clubs of bangkok and the beaches and night life of pattaya which is in thailand.

bye , danial tanvir.

28th of february , 2014
islamabad,pakistan.
the earth.....

Wednesday, January 15, 2014

whats the point of making people suffer so much?...God?

hi there
its denial tanvir here,
and I was really thinking a lot recently..
why does god  make people suffer?
there is nothing to do in life?


whats the point of making people suffer so much?
what is there to do in life,
I have been ill for many years now,
as you know about my obsessive compulsive disorder which has  ruined every thing.


I love reading  books and that too I can not do,

I had gone to Thailand for 16 days and I came back a few days ago from there back home to Islamabad,pakistan,.


I had a blast over there,
I was dancing to the beat of the music in Bangkok and hitting the night clubs of pattaya.


i don't have any religion.
god is unfair?


i made friends who gave me a  book called "the teachings of buddha'
and also bought a  book called "what good is God"
by Christian writer Philip yancey,
and also "night maire in bangkok"
and also a  book called "rebel Buddha""
i still have jamil ahmad's'  "the wandering falcon"and '"the disappearance  of the universe by Gary Renard"
i want to buy
'rasing my voice "and "a case of exploding mangoes"
some thing by Salman Rushdie which my mother brought from India..
i hear voices?
joshwa how could you?
i hate sexuality.
i have to give my exams of sociology and law, i don't think i will pass but i do not know what to do except to hit the night clubs of Bangkok joshwa?
please read my blog and leave comments
bye,danial tanvir jafri.
15nth of January,2014
Islamabad,pakistan...

Saturday, December 14, 2013

I LOVE the streets of Bangkok...Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.books..thailand?.the earth is just a tiny dot in the univers...bangkok..here i come!.

hello there,
Its Danial Tanvir here,
what can i possibly do in this bloody life?
i am ill you know.
i have obsessive compulsive disorder, that really sucks , it has been going on for several years and i do not know what to do..

i have to close swithches,copboards and to close windows and drawers,

you know these are compulsions that i have to do some where in school..


this is terrible,
i hope i am cured of this illness,

the best part is yet to come:
i am going to Bangkok,Thailand on the 27nth of december,2013
i cant wait to get over there,

i will party all night long on the streets of bangkok on songs such as "gagnam style"
and ïnternational love"and "godd feeling"etc.

our driver will drop us to the airport and then off we go to the lovely heaven on earth which  is Bangkok,
i will vist the book stalls over there and also go to a chain of books called "asia  books"
and will buy books such as"night maire in Bangkok"
and "welcome to hell"
\and a book on buddhism called "what makes you not a  buddhsit:"

i saw that  book in Kathmandu a long time ago,

i will party all night lone on the khao san road
i LOVE the khao san road and will dance there and go to the book stalls and go to the shopping malls which have book shops on religion,.




DEATH to Obsessive Compulsive Disorder..
may go to laos or combodia or vietnam or the bus to malaysia.
may hit the baches of Pattaya, i feel miserable , i feel like crying....

bye,Danial Tanvir.

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

when will this illness end?

hey there.
how are you guys?
do read my blog and feel free to leave comments,
i am really sick of this life and as i said there is nothing to do in life,
a wrote a couple of articles for the news papers about accid attacks and about the need for there to be more books and about how people in pakistan need to deal with mental illness,
they got published in nation and daily times,etc.
as i said before the US government is covering up UFO consiparacy theories and i do want to visit area 51,
most likely to meet shirely maclaine.
i might go to lahore for eid next month for about a week, i still have the book 
by gary renard called    "disappearance of the universe".
  obsessive compulsive disorder still screws  up thing , well it can go to hell and can screwed up some where.
i have compulsions in school , doing stuff again and again and i have had just about enough with this illness,
i have the chinese writers book "red sorghum'
by Mo Yan and i have that book which my father brought from china.
screw this bloody pakistan where there is no freedom of speech and there is religous intolerance , well shame on pakistan for how it treats its minorities, its a matter of great shame,
i will go to the readings book shops when am in lahore, and
 on friday , a few days ago i went to a great party in marriot hotel of islambad and they were serving alcahol and the  party was on,
there were poeple from the US,
it did not look like pakistan and it seemed as if youve entered a night club of new york,

i will go to Thailand in december to party and hit the night clubs of bangkok and the beaches pf pattaya.
i might by PG.Woodhouse or Reza Aslan's book 
"no God but God:the origon,evolution and future of Islam"


i want to die because this illness has taken a toll on me and i can not take it any more,
this is the tipping point like malcom gladwell's book,


i do want to party in bangkok and dance the night away on gagnam style or bruce springsteen,

this is no freedom of speech in this screwed up country and there is religous intolerance,
what a shame!.
the dinner at marriot was quite lavish actually,
i will party in bangkok but the compulsions continue to ruin me
i have to do things again and again for example in school i have to close cupboards and take off stickers and check if the fans and switches are on or off and this really suck,
what the fuck is all this?


why cant i go to some other planet and meet aliens in UFOS'
i do go to the doctor,
my blog had views from all over the world including israel,
i will be gone to lahore on the daweoo bus for eid, 

i studied law today and do want to dance in thailand....






 bye,
danial tanvir,
Islamabad,Pakistan.
24rth of september,2013.

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

there is nothing to do in life...

hey its Danial Tanvir
I do want to become  a  writer and sell over 100 million copies world wide.
my father has  gone to china and he will bring books by Chinese writers from me from china.
I am sick of this  bloody miserable life,'
life is miserable and the sufferings will not end ever.

I really want to go and party on the streets of Bangkok with my father,
it has been over a  month since I came back from Canada and I had to stay in Lahore for a few days while my dad had gone to America,
I LOVE the night clubs of Pattaya and I want to hit them,
I do like the book shop called "asia books"

I feel great pitty when I am  unable to  read books,
as you know I have obsessive compulsive disorder and that I hear voices,
this has ruined every thing ,for example I have to close switches and taps countless times due to this illness and this disorder,

life SUCKS and then you die.

I have Gary Renards book with me
"the disappearance of the universe"
I want to go to Bangkok  Via Maldives to meet my step mother,

I read the  book "burned alive" by Souad , it was based in the middle east, I read it in two days , it was disturbing about how women are treated badly by people.

I don't know when this illness of mine will end,
I have been suffering from this bloody obsessive compulsive disorder since 6 years which means since august,2007,
that sucks and my father is in china, I did write an article on acid attacks,
I am DANIAL TANVIR , writer.

where does the universe keep on going and why does god do this to people,God?
\?

there are aliens who live on other planets and come in their UFOS to get people,
I cant even read, that sucks ,I want to read hundreds of books,
I don't know what to do or to say,
god is not just,
I want to party in Bangkok and Pattaya.
I went to a small book shop today,
they had reza aslan's  book and also Mohsin Hamid.
I hope I get abducted by a UFO,
the aliens do not want to alarm the human race,
I am from Pakistan,
I would like to travel in the far east and  party.
perhaps go to sri lanka or Maldives and have nutella and watch the X Files,
I have lived in Islamabad and Lahore,
in a  few days , I will go to pick my father from the airport
,
I did go to school today and studied law and sociology.


I might go to Bangkok and party on music,
bye , Danial Tanvir,
the 3rd of September,2013
Islamabad,Pakistan,
the planet earth , universe.

Monday, July 29, 2013

What can i possibly do???..

why are we  here?
who made us
?
why  is life  so  miserable?
I have been in Canada  for less than 2 months,how ever I am going back tomorrow,a flight from Toronto to Lahore,
I really do miss Islamabad and I do miss my beloved father,
I feel depressed  and my heart continues to sink,

I did  not have fun in Canada  but I still feel bad going back,

obsessive  compulsive disorder is what my life is all about, I have been suffering from it for 5 years and 11 months,
as you know that I have to  close switches and taps here and there and I know that when I go back  to my own country,pakistan, I will have to do all that shit,
I might have to do stuff as my step father and grand  parents  house there in Lahore and trust me this obsessive compulsive disorder can be worst than hell and torture and I might have to do these bloody compulsions  there and it really sucks,



I have been to the book shop  many many times

I bought "why I am not a muslim"
by author Ibn Warraq and also

"restless" by novelist william boyd and also
"the disappearance of the universe"

by gary renard and some one gave me a present , the book
"the lanuage of god"

I do like indian music and I do miss the heart of Bangkok which I fell in love  with some time ago,

I feel great misery in this world and you know that I am mentally ill and this illness does not seem to get cured no matter how hard  I try,
I hear voices and have compulsions,

life is miserable and in my case  its just impossible,

I just cant wait to be back in my nice room in Islamabad,pakistan  and to decorate all those bloody books on the  dammed shelf,
I really want to be back home in my lovely Islamabad and  to go to school.

the bloody compulsions continue to bother me and I have had just about enough but after all Pakistan  in my own country and I can always go to the book shops in Pakistan , I really  do want to go and live in Islamabad, I miss it a lot and I want to dance on the  music in Islamabad


I miss Islamabad so much that I was  about  to cry looking at pictures of Islamabad on google,
'

I do hope that this bloody mental illness of mine is cured , as you know about my obsessive compulsive disorder,and I do hear voices off and on , a  few times a week,

I went to the indigo book shop at eaten center and it was  nice,

I said  good bye to my friend who I made at the book shop,
and atleast I got some books from this bloody trip,

please read my blog and leave comments,
I will be very  happy when I am going to Islamabad on the bus from Lahore on Daewoo, I can not wait for this to happen.


bye,Danial Tanvir.
29th of July,2013
Toronto,Canada.
the planet earth.

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

i am in Canada but am missing the heart of Islamabad.

hello there,
I have not been well recently,
I am very depressed and I feel great misery in life,
how ever ,life is meaningless and there is nothing to do in life except to rot in this miserable world,

obsessive compulsive disorder has ruined every thing,
as you know I have to close switches and taps here and there in Pakistan but that shit has followed me in Canada,
I have to flush the toilet 4 times in some dammed bath room in Toronto, this drives me insane and I do hear voices some times,

the trip to Canada has been a nightmaire, I have been able to read some books and most lately read "the light between oceans" by M.L.Stedman,
I bought Christopher Hitchens book on god and also kept the Ibn Warraq book on hold in the eaten center book shop ,Toronto as it is not available in Pakistan , my father is having a boll of a time in London and New York,
I really want to buy a few books,
coming back to the point , I am home sick, I mean seriously for some reasonI am missing Pakistan too too much, I miss the heart of Islamabad,
I really just want to go back to my own country PAKISTAN,


I will be in Lahore before my father comes black from the USA,
I just want to buy as many books as I can and run from Canada and trust me , I am never coming to this bloody Canada again and also:

I MISS Islamabad, I want to read P.G Woodhouse ,Karen Armstrong , all this is the memory of christopher hitchens , I can always go to the readings book shop in Lahore or saeed book bank in Islamabad,


I want to be back in my beloved room in Islamabad,
I have never missed my lovely Pakistan so much in the history and now I will be in islamabad but will have to wait for a few days in Lahore and I have to give my exams and go to Bangkok via Kathmandu or perhaps Sri Lanka and party on the great music and visit the book shops,
SOME one help me with this bloody OCD(Obsessive Compulsive Disorder)



I LOVE Islamabad , MISS my own  lovely beloved country Pakistan!.


bye,danial tanvir,
16nth of july,2013
Toronto,Canada.