please some one help me
i am in lahore pakistan and it has been nearly 8 years since i have been suffering from this mental illness
i have obsessive compulsive disorder and i hear these bloody voices
i hear voices every day as a matter of fact
i am very ill
god please spare me of all these miseries?
what have i done wrong?
enough is enough
i cant even read books
but i got an email from dan barker writer.
I read godless by Dan Barker two times in one week and I really
first. he talked about the fact that he became a atheist on the ophra winfreys show then he talked about writers such as Richard dawkins and sam harris/
he talked about how he became an atheist and left Christianity in 1984/
he talked about the way he played the paino and were living in wisconsin
some one called him a lair ,
he said that the main argument for the existence of god is that there has to be a creater of such a big universe
his daughter asked him that if god made every one then who made god?
he talked about Richard dawkins and about how he was an atheist and left being a christian ,he talked about god and about his existance and about how how dosent believe in life after death
the compulsions go on and on.
i have to close switches and taps at my step father and grand parents house in lahore
i have to close switches and taps in lahore and islamabad.,.
i have to close taps and switches at some hotel in nathiagalli which is a city ie northern pakistan.
i have to close taps and switches at my sociology teachers house in islamabad
also taps at my law teachers house ./
i have issues at my fathers flat in islamabad used
live in the 5th floor but shifted to the 10nth floor and the tenant over there was a bitch and she was bad to a girl who was the tenant so she went loooking for a house and i have issues to close switches over there and also close switches in the flat we live in/
i have to close switches in the market and also touch the door mats and i have to close the switches the big switches which is actually a coupbord
i have to do the same to those things on different floors , i have to close switches in the coridoor and the entrance of the building
i i have to close windows in building , i have to close switches and taps at my old flat and new flat
i have to close taps in the
filteration plant near the zaman park home
i have to do the same near the islamabad home
i have to close switches and taps at my school and also at the crown plaza hotel , i have to close switches in the hotel entrance of the hotel and the taps in the toilet
I have to close switches and taps and windows at my step mothers house
I have to close switches and taps at my mothers
I have to close the switches and copboards and taps in my mothers fathers brothers house
I have to close switches taps etc in my grand mothers brother house
I have to close switches and taps at my mothers cousions house
I have to close switches at that persons saloon
i have to close drawers in that hospital near our house
I have to close the taps etc at the glasses shop near our house
I have to do things at Punjab club , I have to
Close the drawers in the barbers shop , I have to close the taps and switches etc , I have to close the taps
In the toilet and the switches in the bath room/
I have to close cupboards’ at my mothers friends house/
And I don’t know what to do since the list goes on and on
It seems as if all this crap will never end>
I failed in the law and sociology exams
Not being able to read books in another issue but I did read a few books like godless by dan barker
The taps and switches in my grand parents house and mother bother me a lot but there are other issues like at he flat we live in and in peoples houses
And nothing seems to help at all,
I cant live and I cant die
What can I do?
The switches bother me
The taps bother me
I went to a institute with my mother to do some thing and the switches bothered me and other stuff
The voices tell me that the world and that they are all coming to get you
You are nothing but a coward they tell me/
A coward who wants to kill him self
It seems as if every one is against me and that they know what I am thinking and what I am doing , I don’t know what to do .
I read slow man by jm Coetzee and it was terrible and then I read pilots wife by anita shreve.
now I am reading brain on fire/
now I am reading brain on fire/
my father has gone to china and I will have to rot in Lahore for a week or ten day.s
I might meet dan barker.